Secrets of the Threshold
GA 147
30 August 1913, Munich
Lecture VII
We have talked during these lectures about the way the clairvoyant consciousness ascends into super-sensible worlds, where the true being of man, which is native there, can be thoroughly fathomed. And we have tried in these last few days to show how the human soul, crossing the threshold in its ascent, first passes through the elemental realm and then enters the spiritual world. We showed, too, how the soul meets with what we may call the other self of man.
The ascent could be described in the following way. At first we have a human being living in the physical body in the physical-sense world. When he sheds this physical organism, he goes on living in the etheric body, with the elemental world as his environment. (I have promised for tomorrow to clarify things for those troubled by a sense of possible confusion between the terms used here and in my book Theosophy.) When a person has shed his etheric body also, he ascends to the spirit world itself and this then forms his environment during the time he is living in his astral body, where he experiences his other self. We have emphasized that we experience this other self, which continues from incarnation to incarnation, in such a way that we feel almost as though we—as a third entity—were confronting two other entities. As a point-like being, we confront what we might call our past, brought into the spirit world in the form of memory and transformed into something spiritual by being brought there. And this past of ours begins a conversation in the region where living thought-beings converse. A spiritual conversation of this kind begins when the soul, as though newborn, has to listen to its own past conversing with the spiritual environment, thereby ripening and growing as a living thought-being itself.
Now a great many things can be observed in the process of growing into these spiritual worlds. Let us take the case, for a better understanding, of an ideally normal ascent into the spiritual world, in other words, the ascent of a soul in a completely undisturbed condition. Of course, hardly any such soul exists. That is exactly the reason why I tried to describe the spiritual path as I did, not just in general terms but dramatically as happens with every soul that starts out from its own particular departure point, making an ideally normal ascent out of the question.
Every soul has its own individual spiritual path.17See Three Lectures on the Mystery Dramas (note 13). This can naturally be demonstrated only by showing how the individual ascent takes place, as, for example, in the case of Maria, Johannes Thomasius, Capesius, and Strader. But we can leave this for the moment. Let's picture instead how it would be if a soul's ascent were the ideal one, an example in which all the most ideal conditions for crossing the threshold and entering the spiritual world were met. Such a soul, on encountering its other self in the spiritual world, would not experience this encounter as though it were looking at a photograph of itself. Instead, what is subjective in the physical-sense and elemental worlds and what lives in our souls as abstract subjectivity, namely, the soul forces of thinking, feeling, and will, which we say are inside us, are now no longer within us. The thinking, feeling, and will we have in the physical world confront us objectively as a trinity on meeting our other self in the spiritual world. Encountering this trinity, we have to realize that these three are the self. I tried to represent them in the figures of Philia, Astrid, Luna; they are very real figures. There are as many of them in the world as there are human souls; once you know one, you know them all; it's like knowing all oat grains when you have seen one. But we should be clear that what is usually only a pale, shadowy presence in the human soul, becomes on meeting the other self a living trinity, experienced as three distinct entities. We ourselves are Philia, Astrid and Luna, but they are nevertheless thoroughly independent living thought-beings.
What a sufficiently strengthened soul must be aware of is that it is itself the unity of these three beings. And one must be further aware that what is called thinking, feeling and will is maya, the shadow cast into the soul by these three. Soul sickness would consist either in not recognizing oneself as these three beings in the spiritual world, seeing them as entities with whom one has nothing to do, or in an incapacity to keep them unified, perceiving instead one part of the soul as Luna, another as Astrid and a third as Philia. But it takes an ideal soul development, hardly to be found in human beings, to see this other self in its complete threefoldness.
We have to say, if we want to see things as they are, that the beings called Lucifer and Ahriman send their impulses into the physical-sense world. We have noted their influence there in a great many areas. But human souls that have taken the path of clairvoyant consciousness come into far more intensive touch with them on leaving the physical world and attempting to enter higher realms. Then Ahriman and Lucifer come at such souls and do their best to influence them in various directions.
Let us use the following to illustrate some of their actions. The human soul is pretty complicated and has many conflicting tendencies which it cannot control. These live deep down within it, beyond the reach of our ordinary consciousness. As I have already mentioned, the experience of entering the elemental world can be likened to the grotesque act of sticking one's head into an ant hill. As we stick our consciousness into the elemental realm, every thought becomes an individual living thought-being and begins to lead an independent life, in which our consciousness is immersed.
Now the clairvoyant has the following experience. All human beings have elements in their souls beyond their full control, elements to which they are emotionally attached. Ahriman becomes particularly active towards these especially intense attachments. The soul contains portions that can be pried loose from its entirety, and because we do not fully control these components, Ahriman pounces on them. Through Ahriman's unjustified activity, overstepping his proper domain, a tendency arises for those parts of man's etheric and astral being that are inclined to separate from the rest of the soul's life and become independent to be formed by Ahriman and even given human shape.
As a matter of fact, there are all sorts of thoughts sitting in us that are capable of taking on human form. When Ahriman has the chance to make these parts of the soul independent and give them human shape, they confront us in the elemental world as our Doppelgänger, or double. We have to be aware that everything changes as soon as we leave our physical body and enter the elemental world. One can't encounter oneself while in the physical body, but we can be in an etheric body on entering the elemental world and still see this etheric body from outside as one sees the double.
In terms of its substance, the double is a large part of the etheric body. We retain part of that body, but another part of it separates off and becomes objective. We look at it and see that it is part of ourselves, to which Ahriman has given our own shape. Ahriman tries to squeeze everything to make it conform to physical laws. The physical world is ruled by the Spirits of Form, who share this rulership with Ahriman. Therefore Ahriman can shape part of the human being into the double.
This encounter with the double is in the nature of an elemental phenomenon. It can happen as a result of subconscious soul impressions and impulses even to a person who is not clairvoyant. The following can occur: Somebody or other may be an intrigant and thereby have done harm to other people. He may have gone out and set another intrigue in motion. On returning home, he may enter his study, where papers are lying on his desk, papers that may contain things he made use of in his intrigues. Now what may happen, despite the cynical cast of his ordinary consciousness, is that his subconscious may be seized by these impulses to make intrigues. He comes in, looks at his desk—and what does he see? He sees himself sitting there!
It's an uncomfortable encounter, to enter one's own room and see oneself sitting at the desk. But such things belong to the realm of the possible; they happen often and most easily to those given to intrigue. What one encounters is indeed the double. The double is one among many tasks I have set myself to tackle in the two plays, The Guardian of the Threshold and The Souls' Awakening. We know that the double is experienced by Johannes Thomasius. It is due to his peculiar development and to the strange experiences he has lived through that he has these encounters with the double in the scenes shown;18See The Probation of the Soul, Scene 5. Ahriman can form a part of his soul in such a way at this soul fragment—essentially a part of his etheric body—is filled with self-seeking soul elements. This sort of thing occurs only when the preconditions are such as those in Johannes Thomasius's case. You can get quite an idea of Johannes's particular soul in the course of the four dramas. A certain stage in his soul development is also indicated at the end of The Guardian of the Threshold.19See The Guardian of the Threshold, Scenes 9 and 10. Such a stage is reached by many seekers on the spiritual path.
Let us summarize how things stand with this Johannes Thomasius. Looking back to the Portal, we find him, as it were, experiencing the higher world. But how does he experience it? We might say that if we observe him only in this early part of the dramas, The Portal of Initiation, he hasn't advanced very far—not beyond what might be called “imaginative soul experiences,” with all the imbalance and mistakes attendant on them. All the experiences presented there are subjective, except for the scenes that are not part of the action, the Prelude and the Interlude preceding Scene Eight. All the other action is the subjective imaginative experience of Johannes Thomasius; he doesn't get beyond this stage in the Portal. Everything we see on the stage should be conceived as happening in Johannes's soul as imaginative insight. This is very clear from the stage directions, which—except for the two scenes mentioned—require Johannes to be on stage throughout; this is very tiring for the actor. Even though in the Temple scene at the end of the drama, Johannes Thomasius says all sorts of things that theoretically have objective validity, we might agree that people say a lot of things in various temples that do not reflect maturity, for which a longer growth period is needed. But words are not what matter here; we see from the whole presentation that we are dealing with the subjective imaginations of Johannes Thomasius.
New developments come about in The Probation of the Soul. A higher ascent is brought about by Johannes's achieving impressions of earlier earth lives. This does not remain in the realm of imagination but extends into the objective world where spiritual facts are encountered, which exist independently of his soul. We move away from his subjectivity into the objective world. In the course of these first two plays, Johannes gradually frees himself from his subjective state and enters the objective spiritual world. That was why it happened so naturally—since in The Probation of the Soul Johannes was achieving the first stage of actual initiation—that Lucifer gains the seductive influence shown at the end of the play.20The Probation of the Soul, Scene 12. Thus conditions are met that allow the further development of a soul like that of Johannes Thomasius, as portrayed in The Guardian of the Threshold.
In this play Johannes Thomasius is brought into the objective spiritual world. His work impels him at first to a more subjective encounter with Ahriman there; as a result of this meeting, Johannes develops an egotism counter to the divine world order. But now begin his objective experiences and these are Lucifer's domain. Here we are definitely no longer dealing with the merely subjective but with a picturing of the spiritual world apart from man. The spiritual world is a spiritual experience just as the physical world is a physical one.
Johannes Thomasius now enters the objective spiritual world for the first time. This means that he is able to bring in with him all the possibilities of erring of which the soul is capable, especially his strange relationship to Theodora. Johannes enters the higher world, burdened with all the slag of his lower self, but even so, confronting the higher world. If I may use a shallow term for it, I would have to say that Johannes Thomasius falls occultly in love with Theodora. Certain physical impulses intrude into the higher world in this relationship. As he goes through all this, Johannes Thomasius reaches the point described at the end of The Guardian of the Threshold. Here he experiences his ordinary self, belonging to the physical and elemental worlds, as well as the other self he met upon entering the spiritual world. In Scene Nine, the Morning Walk, as well as in Scene Eleven, the Temple, in the presence of Hilary, Johannes reaches what one might describe as his inner sensing of both these two selves. But it is clear that he has not yet created any balance in the relationship between the ordinary and the other self; he wavers back and forth between the two. Considering that at the end of the Guardian and thus at the beginning of The Souls' Awakening, Johannes Thomasius stands before us as a soul who feels the separate yet parallel activity of these two selves, we can understand that much exists in his soul-being that can be dug out, so to speak. At first Ahriman digs out the double. But there is more in Johannes's soul to be extracted.
Let me emphasize that I am not describing all this as a commentary on the dramas21After his introductory words, Rudolf Steiner added, Because of so many requests each year I've taken up my pen and made not only a beginning but have something worked out as a kind of explanation of our four mystery dramas. But each time I've laid the thing aside for the same reason I indicated in the “Remarks” introducing The Souls' Awakening: ‘I am averse to adding material of this kind to a portrayal intended to speak for itself.’ It is disagreeable to me to make an intellectual commentary on something that truly had no theoretical or intellectual origin but stands complete in all its scenes like an inspiration from the spiritual world. I could really say nothing more about it intellectually than anyone else would do who went into the matter. When things are given in this way, there is a definite need to let them speak for themselves, and not to suck them dry with clear theoretical thinking. However, we may be able to address several points in this lecture cycle. but in order to make use of what they portray to illustrate actual spiritual conditions and spiritual reality. If we consider human karma, the lawful order of human destiny, we must say that there is a great deal of fulfilled karma in the human soul but also much that is unfulfilled. We have gone through a great deal in a former earth life that requires harmonizing; for the moment it may be lying unresolved in the depths of the soul. Every soul has unresolved karma of this kind.
Johannes Thomasius has to become conscious of an especially large amount of unresolved karma, when his inner being separates into his ordinary and his other self. When this happens, much of his unresolved karma is separated from him. Those elements are detached that are readily felt by every soul gradually developing clairvoyance to be detaching themselves. Such souls are born into physical existence possessing the game qualities all young people have. Even clairvoyants start out in life as ordinary children do, to their own benefit; we do not always find them ready to become, the sort of person Krishnamurti was made into.22Krishnamurti: in 1911 Mrs. Besant had named this young Hindu boy as the newly appeared Christ; later as a young man, Krishnamurti repudiated this attribution. Then a moment comes—a karmically determined moment—when the spiritual world lights up. But it often happens—and this is important—that a clairvoyant soul experiences the sight of its own youth as though it were an objective being,23Rudolf Steiner, Mysterienstaetten des Mittelalters (GA 233a), (Jan. 5, 1924), (Dornach Switzerland, Rudolf Steiner Verlag). Not available in English. when the soul is in an extremely elegiac or tragic mood. We behold our outgrown youth and ask ourselves, what would have become of this now almost alien youth, if we had not found our way into a spiritual clairvoyance? A real splitting apart takes place. One experiences a kind of rebirth and looks back to one's own youth as to something alien. We have to say of a great deal of the karma of our youthful years that it cannot be resolved in this incarnation. Much of this karma lies buried and will have to be resolved later, or else one has to make an effort to start working it out now. Johannes's soul is burdened by much unresolved karma.
Unresolved karma of this kind and the looking back at one's younger self as though at someone else are both inwardly experienced. Lucifer finds entry here; he can take away a substantial part of the etheric body and, as it were, ensoul it with the unresolved karma. It becomes a shadow-being under Lucifer's influence, a being like that portrayed in the Spirit of Johannes's Youth. A shadow-being of this kind is an actual being. It is there, separate from Johannes Thomasius, but involved in gruesome concerns, running as it does counter to the world order. This shadow-being outside Johannes Thomasius ought really to be within him; the fact that it is not has caused what we feel to be the tragic fate of this being, which lives outside as a part of his etheric body in the elemental and spiritual worlds.
A person who has this important, meaningful experience gathers from it the insight that his unresolved karma has loaded a burden of cosmic debt upon himself and has created a being that rightly belongs not outside but within him. The Other Philia makes Johannes Thomasius aware in The Souls' Awakening that he has given birth to a soul-child, who suffers a sort of illegitimate existence off by itself. The remarkable thing about growing up into the spiritual world is that one encounters one's own being but can encounter it in multiple, spiritually objective copies. In Johannes Thomasius's case we are dealing with manifold duplication. One part of his being comes to meet him as his double, and then another part—for karma belongs to the essential nature of a human being—comes as the Spirit of his Youth.
And now a third element enters the picture, for Johannes is not yet ready to undergo what Maria has gone through. She has had a relatively normal development. In Scene Nine, Astrid and Luna appear to her—not in the company of the real Philia—just these two soul forces. This is still a comparatively normal development. It would have been completely normal for Maria to have experienced the presence of all three, with thinking, feeling, and will so objectified that Maria felt them to be a unity. But such a normal development scarcely exists. Let me emphasize that the soul forces I tried to characterize here are real figures, so that the situation described is fully possible. Maria's consciousness soul and intellectual soul are more evenly developed than her sentient soul; she therefore meets Astrid and Luna but not Philia. A soul like hers still has a highly normal development.
However, Johannes Thomasius's development deviates considerably from the normal. First of all, his double appears. As he nears his other self, the double and then the Spirit of his Youth appear. All this accompanies his approach to the other self, because the latter brings these inner conditions to light. If Johannes Thomasius were to get really close to the other self, he would be confronted by all three soul forces. But he has to undergo a great deal that looms up on the way to his other self. Since Johannes does not at once attain to the other self, he is met by the Other Philia, who is more closely related to his subjectivity. The Other Philia is, in a sense, the other self. But the other self, which is still resting in the soul's depth and has not fully separated from it, is still connected with what in the physical world is most similar to the spiritual realm. This soul force is also linked with an all-prevailing love and because of this, it can guide us into higher worlds. And so the Other Philia, the third figure, is encountered by Johannes Thomasius on the way to his other self. If a soul were to meet all three soul forces, it wouldn't have to contend with any obstacles. As it is, however, the whole being of man can take objective form and appears in the outside world in its entirety. That is the case when we see the Other Philia at the end of Scene Two of The Souls' Awakening.
Now I explained to you that as a man grows into the elemental world and even into the spiritual world, he must acquire the capacity to transform himself, because everything in those worlds is always in a state of transformation; nothing there remains in static or finished form. Finished form exists only in the physical realm, whereas in the elemental world everything is mobile and capable of change.
But since everything is constantly changing, mixups can occur. If one is not alert enough, one can mistake one being for another. That is what happens to Johannes Thomasius: first the Other Philia appears and later on he mistakes the double for her. Mistakes of this kind can happen very easily. We must realize that we have to work our way very gradually to an exact beholding of higher worlds and that because of the constant change there, mixups can well occur. And the way these mistakes come to light is extraordinarily significant for the course of a soul's development.
Johannes has had an experience three times over,24The Souls' Awakening, Scenes 2, 4, 10. as you will remember; the nature of this experience is due to the particular way he has developed. The first is with the Other Philia, the second with the double, the third again with the Other Philia—a triad of experiences. Everything in the world comes in threes! If we don't find them, we should look for them. The fact that Johannes Thomasius encounters the Other Philia twice and the double only once, and on one occasion mistakes one for the other, is due to the stage of development he has achieved. His perceiving of his soul-child, the Spirit of his Youth, goes back to the same fact. Of course, Lucifer helped create this child, which now exists as an independent being. It is one of the most shattering experiences the clairvoyant can have to find the spiritual world peopled by shadowy beings created by Lucifer from parts of unresolved Karma. We can find many such shadow-beings, which we ourselves, prompted by Lucifer, have placed in the spiritual world through our unresolved karma. These experiences with shadow-beings correspond to the point our soul development has reached.
Let us assume that Johannes Thomasius's case had been different. He would have made two mistakes, would have been wrong twice and once right, have seen the double twice and the Other Philia once. But the actual fact was that he was too caught up in subjectivity. Maria, in contrast, has gone so far in the direction of objectivity as to be confronted by two soul forces. But Johannes has to strengthen his soul to a point where what still remains rather subjective can confront him objectively: “enchanted weaving of one's own being.” These words strengthen his soul. And as this enchanted weaving of his own being becomes more evident and brings him closer to his other self, Johannes confronts himself in his double, in the Spirit of his Youth and in the Other Philia.
Johannes Thomasius would have to have a different make-up to experience this triad differently—making two mistakes, let's say, and seeing the double twice. He would not have seen just one Spirit of his Youth as The Souls' Awakening has it; he would instead have seen many of his soul-children in the realm of shadows. Here great secrets of soul life make themselves felt.
You can see from all I've been saying that the clairvoyant path to man's true being is complicated, for the soul itself is complex. To approach it means to ascend step by step into spiritual realms. It means also that you become a being of memory, a being of the past, for you become aware that you are not in the present nor for the moment have you any future. You are what you have been and carry your past into the present. Your further spiritual growth is then such that what you have thus carried into realms of the spirit, what you experience spiritually, starts a spiritual conversation with the surrounding spirit world. You grow as you listen to this conversation of your own past with the living thought beings of the spiritual world. But when you feel yourself thus transposed into the spirit world wherein you come upon your other self, you will also have a feeling that can be described like this: “You are now indeed in the spiritual world. You can find your other self as a spiritual being, due to the fact that you are living in the realm of the spirit clothed in the astral body. But as yet you cannot find your ultimate true being in this world. In spite of ascending into spiritual realms, you cannot yet find the being whose shadow is your ego in the physical world.” One learns little by little what a significant experience one must still undergo in order to penetrate to the true ego, the true inner being, enveloped in the other self.
Man's being is indeed complex and lives far down in the soul's depths. And actually to reach the real ego requires living through a variety of experiences. It has been emphasized how one can penetrate into the spiritual world with memory, how no new impressions are received, how what one has been must be allowed to speak, and how one, now a point-like being, must listen to the spiritual conversation between one's past and one's spiritual environment. We retain this memory. It also stays with us between death and rebirth.
The memory of real sensory existence between birth and death stays firmly present in the soul between death and rebirth. But if one penetrates to the true ego after having become clairvoyant, one comes to realize that a decision, a spiritual deed is necessary. And it can be said of it: This must be a strong, determined decision of the will, to root out, to forget the memory of what we have been, in all its detail. With this we come to something that was also dimly apparent in earlier clairvoyant and cognitive stages of experience. In Scene Three of The Souls' Awakening where Strader stands at the abyss of his existence, there is a foreshadowing of this experience that one has in spiritual realms. But one stands in the fullest sense of the word at the abyss of existence when one makes the decision in true freedom and energy of will, to blot out and forget oneself.
All these things are completely true of all human beings; nevertheless people are unaware of them. Every night we are required to blot ourselves out, without being conscious of it. But it is an entirely different matter fully consciously to give over to destruction and to forget one's remembering ego—to stand in the spiritual world as a nothing on the edge of the abyss of nothingness. This is the most shattering experience one can have; one must approach it with great confidence that the true ego will he brought to us out of the cosmos. And this is indeed the case.
We know, after we have achieved forgetfulness on the edge of the abyss, that everything we have ever experienced is blotted out, and this we did ourselves. But out of an as yet unknown world—a world I might call super-spiritual—our real ego, whose only remaining concealment has been the other self, comes toward us. Only now do we meet our true ego, whose shadow or maya as it exists in the physical world is the lower ego. For man's true ego belongs to the super-spiritual world. All this is inner experience: the ascent to the super-spiritual realm, the perceiving of a completely new world at the edge of the abyss, the receiving of the true ego from this world.
I wanted this description to serve as a bridge to tomorrow's lecture. You should mull it over. We will continue tomorrow, linking up with what I have said today in regard to the encounter that takes place at the edge of the abyss.
Siebenter Vortrag
Wir haben im Laufe dieser Vorträge gesprochen über den Aufstieg des hellsichtigen Bewußtseins in die Welten, in welchen die wahre Wesenheit des Menschen, die durchaus den übersinnlichen Welten angehört, ergründet werden kann. Und wir haben gerade in den letzten Tagen versucht, zu zeigen, wie die Menschenseele, wenn sie aufsteigt über die Schwelle, zunächst durch die elementarische Welt durchgeht und dann in die geistige Welt eintritt, wie diese Seele die Begegnung mit dem hat, was man das andere Selbst des Menschen nennen kann. Man könnte den Aufstieg auch so charakterisieren.
Zunächst lebt der Mensch innerhalb seines physischen Leibes in der physisch-sinnlichen Welt. Wenn er sich seines physischen Leibes entledigt, also herausgeht aus seinem physischen Leibe, lebt er zunächst in seinem ätherischen Leibe und lebt da in der elementarischen Welt als seiner Umwelt. Wie gesagt, ich werde morgen für diejenigen, die Widersprüche wittern wollten, darauf aufmerksam machen, wie die hier gebrauchten Benennungen stehen zu den Benennungen in meiner «Theosophie». In seinem ätherischen Leibe lebt der Mensch in der elementarischen Umwelt. Wenn der Mensch dann auch sich seines ätherischen Leibes entledigt, so steigt er in die eigentlich geistige Welt auf; diese ist dann seine Umwelt, und er ist in seinem astralischen Leibe. In seinem astralischen Leibe erlebt der Mensch also sein anderes Selbst, das von Inkarnation zu Inkarnation geht, und von dem wir haben hervorheben können, daß man es so erlebt, daß man gleichsam als einem Dritten zwei anderen Tatsachen gegenübersteht. Wie ein punktuelles Wesen steht man gegenüber dem, was man nennen kann sein Gewesenes, was man als Erinnerung mitbringt in die geistige Welt, was man dadurch, daß man es hinaufgetragen hat, selber ins Geistige verwandelt hat. Und dieses Gewesene beginnt dann ein Gespräch in der Region, wo die Gedankenlebewesen ihre Geist gespräche haben. Ein solches Geistgespräch beginnt da, das man wie neugeboren - in der geistigen Welt erlauschen muß, was die eigene Vergangenheit spricht mit der geistigen Umgebung, und man dadurch als Gedankenlebewesen selber heranreift und heranwächst.
Nun ist mancherlei zu beobachten bei diesem Hineinwachsen in die geistigen Welten. Nehmen wir zunächst, um uns gut zu verständigen, sozusagen das ideale normale Hinaufleben in die geistige Welt, also ein Hinaufleben, das bei einer Seele eintreten würde, die gar keine irgendwie gearteten Störungen hätte. Man kann schon sagen, eine solche Seele gibt es kaum. Das ist der Grund, warum ich bestrebt war, nicht nur im allgemeinen den geistigen Pfad zu schildern, sondern ihn auch so dramatisch darzustellen, wie es geschehen ist, weil jede Seele von einem bestimmten Ausgangspunkt ausgeht, und deshalb ein normaler idealer Aufstieg eigentlich nicht vorhanden sein kann. Jede Seele hat ihren individuellen geistigen Pfad. Das kann man natürlich nur zeigen, wenn man an einzelnen Seelen, wie an Maria, Johannes Thomasius, Capesius, Strader zeigt, wie sich der individuelle Aufstieg für diese einzelnen Seelen ausnimmt. Aber sehen wir zunächst einmal einen Augenblick davon ab. Denken wir, wie es wäre, wenn der Aufstieg einer Seele normal ideal sein könnte, wenn also alle idealsten Bedingungen erfüllt wären für das Überschreiten der Schwelle, für das Hinaufsteigen in die geistigen Welten. Dann würde der Mensch, wenn er in der geistigen Welt seinem anderen Selbst begegnete, das nicht etwa so erleben können, wie man eine Photographie von sich selbst erlebte, sondern das, was in der physisch-sinnlichen Welt und in der elementarischen Welt subjektiv ist, was da innerhalb der Seele in abstrakter Subjektivität lebt, was Seelenkräfte sind, Denken, Fühlen und Wollen, wovon man sagt, daß man sie im Inneren hat — das hat man dann nicht mehr im Inneren. Dieses Denken, Fühlen und Wollen, das man in der physischen Welt hat, tritt einem, wenn man dem anderen Selbst begegnet in der geistigen Welt, objektiv entgegen, und zwar als eine Dreiheit. Und ich versuchte, diese Dreiheit, der man begegnet, und der gegenüber man das Bewußtsein in sich haben muß, diese Drei ist man selber, darzustellen in den Gestalten von Philia, Astrid und Luna. Diese Gestalten sind ganz reale Gestalten; sie sind so oft in der geistigen Welt vorhanden, als es einzelne Menschenseelen gibt. Man erkennt sie, wenn man sie einmal erkannt hat, wie man alle Haferkörner kennt, wenn man ein Haferkorn kennengelernt hat. Aber man muß sich klar sein, daß das, was sonst nur ein Schattenbild, ein schwaches Schattenbild in der menschlichen Seele ist, einem dann, wenn man seinem anderen Selbst begegnet, als eine lebendige Dreiheit, als eine wirklich differenzierte Dreiheit, in drei Wesen differenzierte Dreiheit entgegentritt. Man ist Philia, Astrid, Luna selber. Aber das sind trotzdem durchaus selbständige Gedankenlebewesen.
Und was man in der erstarkten Seele dann haben muß, das ist das Bewußtsein, man ist die Einheit dieser drei Wesen. Und auch davon muß man ein Bewußtsein haben, daß das, was man Denken, Fühlen und Wollen nennt, eine Maja ist, nämlich das Schattenbild, das von diesen Dreien in die Seele hereingeworfen wird. Das Krankhafte der Seele würde darin bestehen können, entweder, daß man sich nicht erkennt in der geistigen Welt als diese drei Wesen, daß man diese drei als Wesen betrachten würde, die nichts mit einem zu tun haben, oder daß man nicht die Einheit festhalten könnte, sondern sich selber so halten würde, daß ein Teil der Seele die Luna, ein anderer die Astrid und wieder ein anderer die Philia ist. Aber so in seiner vollen Dreiheit dieses andere Selbst zu sehen, das erfordert eben einen normalen idealen Entwickelungsgang der Seele, wie er kaum vorhanden sein kann bei einer menschlichen Seele.
Faßt man das, was vorhanden sein kann, was im wirklichen Sinne real werden kann, ins Auge, so muß man sagen: Wir haben schon bemerklich gemacht, daß diejenigen Gestalten, die man bezeichnet durch Ahriman und Luzifer, ihre Impulse in die physisch-sinnliche Welt hineinsenden. Wir haben sie gefunden, Ahriman und Luzifer, auf den verschiedensten Gebieten der physischen Welt. -— Aber in einem viel intensiveren Maße, viel stärker kommt die Menschenseele mit Ahriman und Luzifer in Berührung, wenn sie den Pfad des hellsichtigen Bewußtseins antritt. Wenn sie hinausgeht aus der physischen Welt und in die höheren Welten einzudringen versucht, dann machen sich Ahriman und Luzifer an diese Menschenseele heran, dann versuchen sie so manches mit dieser Seele zu vollbringen. Um einiges von den Taten des Ahriman und Luzifer auf diesem Gebiete einzusehen, sei das Folgende erwähnt.
Die Menschenseele ist wirklich ein recht kompliziertes Wesen, und man hat als solches gar mancherlei in sich, was einander widerspricht, was man nicht beherrscht, was in den Seelentiefen ist, ohne daß man im Oberbewußtsein das richtige Verständnis dafür hat. Nun habe ich schon folgendes erwähnt. Wenn man in die elementarische Welt eintritt, ist es so, daß sich das Erlebnis vergleichen läßt mit dem grotesken Bild des Hineinsteckens des Kopfes in einen Ameisenhaufen; das heißt, man steckt das Bewußtsein so in die elementarische Welt hinein, daß die einzelnen Gedanken besondere Gedankenlebewesen sind, daß das anfängt, ein selbständiges Leben zu haben und man das Bewußtsein hineintaucht in dieses Leben. Nun, für die hellsichtige Seele stellt sich das Folgende heraus. Der Mensch hat immer in seiner Seele einiges, was er sozusagen nicht voll beherrscht, wofür er besondere Affekte hat. Solchen Dingen gegenüber, was so geartet ist, daß der Mensch mit seinem Inneren in ganz eigenartiger Weise zusammenhängt, entfaltet Ahriman eine besondere Tätigkeit. Es gibt in der Menschenseele solche Teile, die man gewissermaßen loslösen kann von dem Ganzen dieser Menschenseele. Weil der Mensch nicht eine vollständige Herrschaft ausübt über solche Einschlüsse, macht sich Ahriman darüber her. Und da macht sich durch Ahrimans Tätigkeit, die unberechtigt ist, die dadurch entsteht, daß Ahriman seine Grenze überschreitet, dann die Tendenz geltend, daß solche Teile der menschlichen ätherischen Wesenheit und auch der menschlichen astralischen Wesenheit, welche die Neigung haben, sich von dem übrigen Seelenleben loszutrennen und selbständig zu werden, von Ahriman sich formen lassen, so daß er ihnen die menschliche Gestalt gibt. Im Grunde genommen steht es mit allen möglichen Gedanken, die in uns selber sitzen, so, daß sie die menschliche Gestalt annehmen können. Wenn der Mensch diesen Gedanken als Gedankenlebewesen gegenübertritt, wenn dann Ahriman die Gelegenheit hat, einen solchen Teil der menschlichen Seele zu verselbständigen, ihm die menschliche Form zu geben, und man lebt sich in die elementarische Welt hinein, dann steht man diesem verselbständigten Teil seiner Wesenheit als seinem Doppelgänger gegenüber. Es ist immer ein Teil der menschlichen Seele, dem Ahriman die Form der menschlichen Gestalt gibt. Man muß sich nur klarmachen, daß, wenn man die elementarische Welt betritt, wenn man außerhalb seines physischen Leibes ist, sich in den ganzen Verhältnissen so manches ändert. Wenn man in seinem physischen Leibe darinnensteckt, so kann man sich nicht gegenübertreten; wenn man aber in seinem ätherischen Leibe die elementarische Welt betritt, so kann man in ihm stecken und ihn dennoch von außen sehen, wie man den Doppelgänger sieht. Dies ist mit dem Doppelgänger gemeint. Er ist im Grunde genommen, wenn man substantiell spricht, ein großer Teil des ätherischen Leibes selber. Während man einen Teil desselben zurückbehält, sondert sich ein Teil ab, wird objektiv. Man schaut ihn an, es ist ein Teil der eigenen Wesenheit, dem Ahriman die Gestalt gegeben hat, die man selber hat. Denn Ahriman versucht alles sozusagen hereinzudrängen in die Gesetze der physischen Welt. In der physischen Welt herrschen die Geister der Form, und sie teilen diese Herrschaft mit Ahriman, so daß Ahriman das durchaus ausführen kann mit einem Teil der menschlichen Wesenheit, was man bezeichnen kann als das Gestalten eines Teiles der menschlichen Wesenheit zum Doppelgänger.
Es ist — verhältnismäßig — eine elementare Erscheinung, diese Begegnung mit dem Doppelgänger, und sie kann auftreten durch besondere unterbewußte Eindrücke und Impulse der menschlichen Seele, auch wenn der Mensch nicht hellsichtig ist. Es kann das Folgende vorkommen: Irgendein Mensch kann ein Intrigant sein, kann mancherlei Menschen durch seine Intrigen Böses zugefügt haben. Er kann wieder einmal ausgegangen sein und irgendeine Intrige eingefädelt haben. Er kommt zurück in seine Wohnung, tritt vielleicht in sein Schreibzimmer ein, auf seinem Schreibtisch liegen vielleicht Papiere, auf denen Dinge stehen, mit denen er die Intrigen eingefädelt hat, und es kann ihm passieren, trotzdem er in seinem Oberbewußtsein zynisch geartet sein kann, daß doch sein Unterbewußtsein erfaßt wird von jenen Impulsen des Intrigierens. Er tritt ein in sein Schreibzimmer, schaut zu seinem Schreibtisch hin und siehe da: er sitzt da selber. Das ist eine unangenehme Begegnung, wenn man durch seine eigene Türe ins Zimmer tritt und sich selbst am Schreibtisch sitzen sieht. Aber solche Dinge gehören in den Bereich dessen, was sehr oft passiert und was dann gerade leicht passieren kann, wenn solches Intrigieren stattfindet. Dasjenige, dem man da begegnet, ist durchaus der Doppelgänger, den ich wiederum mit anderen Aufgaben versucht habe, in dem «Hüter der Schwelle» und in «Der Seelen Erwachen» darzustellen. Wir wissen, daß dieser Doppelgänger von Johannes Thomasius erlebt wird, und es hängt mit der eigentümlichen Entwickelung des Johannes Thomasius zusammen, daß er an den Stellen, wo es gezeigt wird, die Begegnung mit dem Doppelgänger hat, weil durch die eigentümlichen Erlebnisse, die er gehabt hat, Ahriman einen Teil seiner Seele formgemäß so gestalten kann, daß dieser Teil der Seele substantiell als Teil des ätherischen Leibes mit selbstsüchtigen Seelenelementen erfüllt ist. So etwas tritt dann auf, wenn die Vorbedingungen geschaffen sind wie bei Johannes Thomasius. Sie können ein wenig in die eigenartige Seele dieses Johannes Thomasius durch die vier Dramen hindurchblicken. Es ist auch am Ende von «Der Hüter der Schwelle» ein gewisser Entwickelungspunkt in der Seele des Johannes Thomasius angedeutet. Solch ein Entwickelungspunkt kann für viele Seelen eintreten, welche den Weg in die übersinnlichen Welten hinauf suchen.
Wollen wir einmal kurz zusammenfassen, wie es denn mit diesem Johannes Thomasius eigentlich steht. Wenn wir zurückblicken auf «Die Pforte der Einweihung», da haben wir Johannes 'Thomasius sozusagen erlebend die höhere Welt. Aber wie erlebt er sie? Man darf wohl sagen: Wenn man nur diesen Teil der Dramen nimmt, «Die Pforte der Einweihung», und betrachtet darin Johannes Thomasius, so kommt er da eigentlich nicht besonders weit. Er kommt nicht weiter als zu dem, was man nennen kann imaginative Seelenerlebnisse mit all ihren Einseitigkeiten und Fehlern. Alles, was da dargestellt ist, sind subjektive Erlebnisse, mit Ausnahme der Bilder, die nicht zur Handlung gehören, des Vorspieles und der Einschiebung vor dem achten Bilde. Aber was sonst da ist, sind subjektive imaginative Erlebnisse des Johannes Thomasius. Über diese Stufe kommt Johannes in «Die Pforte der Einweihung» nicht hinaus. Das ist auch ziemlich handgreiflich angedeutet, indem ganz klar geschildert ist, daß bei allen Szenen, mit Ausnahme der zwei genannten, Johannes, was ja für den Darsteller ziemlich schwierig ist, immer auf der Bühne ist. Und zu denken ist alles in der Seele des Johannes als imaginative Erkenntnis. Wenn auch am Ende der «Pforte der Einweihung» Johannes Thomasius im Tempel allerlei Worte spricht, die theoretisch objektive Gültigkeit haben, so darf erwähnt werden, daß in den verschiedenen Tempeln manche Leute Worte sprechen, für die sie lange nicht reif sind, zu denen sie erst heranreifen müssen. Das ist nicht das Maßgebende, sondern man erkennt aus der ganzen Darstellung: da hat man es mit subjektiven Imaginationen des Johannes Thomasius zu tun.
Weiter geht die Sache schon in der «Prüfung der Seele», wo ein höherer Aufstieg herbeigeführt wird dadurch, daß Johannes zu Impressionen aus früheren Erdenleben kommt, was nicht bloß Imagination ist, wo die Sache in die objektive Welt hinausgeht, wo man es mit geistigen Tatsachen zu tun hat, die abgesondert von der Seele des Johannes Thomasius als solche existieren. In der «Prüfung der Seele» treten wir aus der Subjektivität des Johannes Thomasius in die objektive Welt hinaus. So daß man diese zwei ersten Stücke so betrachten kann, daß Johannes Thomasius allmählich sich von seinem Inneren loslöst und in die äußere geistige Welt hinaustritt. Gerade deshalb lag es so nahe — weil Johannes die erste Stufe der eigentlichen Initiation während der «Prüfung der Seele» durchmacht -, daß da Luzifer jenen versucherischen Einfluß gewinnt, der am Ende der «Prüfung der Seele» dargestellt ist. Und damit wiederum war das gegeben, was eine solche Seele wie die des Johannes Thomasius durchmachen kann, und was angedeutet wird im «Hüter der Schwelle».
Im «Hüter der Schwelle» wird Johannes 'Thomasius in die geistige objektive Welt hineingestellt, wo er, allerdings noch durch die Arbeit getrieben, mehr subjektiv zunächst Ahriman gegenübersteht, von dem er aufnimmt, was er im Gegensatz zur göttlichen Weltenordnung an Egoistischem entwickelt. Dann aber beginnen die objektiven Erlebnisse, in denen Luzifer waltet. Da haben wir es durchaus nicht mehr mit bloß subjektiven Erlebnissen zu tun, sondern mit der Darstellung der geistigen Welt, losgelöst vom Menschen, die man im Geistigen erlebt, so wie man die äußere physische Welt im Physischen erlebt. Aber Johannes Thomasius tritt sozusagen da erst in die objektive geistige Welt hinein. Daher kann er da noch alle Verirrungsmöglichkeiten der menschlichen Seele mitbringen, vor allen Dingen das eigentümliche Verhältnis zu Theodora. Dieses Verhältnis muß man nur fassen, wie es gemeint ist. Man möchte sagen, mit all den Schlacken des niederen Selbstes tritt Johannes in diese höhere Welt herein, aber er steht der höheren Welt gegenüber. Und wenn ich mit einem recht flachen Ausdruck die Sache bezeichnen will, so möchte ich sagen: Okkult verliebt sich Johannes Thomasius in Theodora. — Es werden also in dem Verhältnis des Johannes ’Thomasius zu Theodora gewisse Impulse der physischen Welt in die höhere Welt hinaufgetragen. Durch alles dies hindurchgehend, kommt Johannes Thomasius zu dem, was angedeutet ist am Ende vom «Hüter der Schwelle». Zu einem Erleben des gewöhnlichen Selbstes, das der physischen Welt und der elementarischen Welt angehört, das man mit sich trägt, wenn man als Mensch durch die Welt geht, und des anderen Selbstes, dem man begegnet, wenn man die geistige Welt betritt, kommt Johannes Thomasius. Sowohl im neunten Bilde, in dem Spaziergang, wie auch im Tempel vor Hilarius gelangt Johannes Thomasius an das, was man nennen kann sein inneres Erfühlen sowohl des einen wie des anderen Selbstes. Man merkt aber genau, daß Johannes Thomasius noch nicht recht Ordnung geschaffen hat in bezug auf die Harmonie zwischen dem gewöhnlichen und dem anderen Selbst, daß er hin und her lebt zwischen beiden Selbsten. Wenn man das ins Auge faßt, daß Johannes Thomasius am Ende vom «Hüter der Schwelle» und damit am Anfang von «Der Seelen Erwachen» dasteht wie eine Seele, die in sich fühlt das Nebeneinanderwirken des gewöhnlichen und des anderen Selbstes, dann wird man begreifen, daß bei Johannes 'Thomasius viele Dinge in seiner Seele sind, die sozusagen herausgeschält werden können. Der Doppelgänger wird zunächst herausgeschält durch Ahriman. Aber auch in anderer Weise kann aus ihm etwas herausgeschält werden.
Ich betone, daß ich diese Dinge nicht schildere, um einen Kommentar zu geben zu den Dramen, sondern um das, was in den Dramen dargestellt ist, zu benützen, um wirkliche geistige Verhältnisse und geistig Wesenhaftes darzustellen. Wenn man das menschliche Karma in Betracht zieht, die ganze Gesetzmäßigkeit des menschlichen Schicksals, dann muß man sagen: In der menschlichen Seele ist vieles von ausgetragenem, aber auch nicht ausgetragenem Karma. — Man hat in seinem verflossenen Erdenleben manches durchlebt, was ausgeglichen werden muß. Man hat vieles, was noch nicht ausgeglichen ist, was unausgeglichen sozusagen auf dem Grunde der Seele ruht, unausgeglichenes Karma. Jede Seele hat solches nicht ausgetragenes Karma. Johannes 'Thomasius muß ganz besonders viel nicht ausgetragenes Karma sich zum Bewußtsein bringen da, wo sich seine innere Wesenheit spaltet in das gewöhnliche und in das andere Selbst. Und da sondert sich recht viel ab von unausgetragenem Karma. Solches sondert sich ab, was eigentlich leicht und oft jede Seele als abgesondert empfindet, die sich nach und nach zur Hellsichtigkeit hin entwickelt. Eine Seele, die das tut, wird ja geboren, das heißt, tritt durch die Geburt ins physische Dasein so ein, daß sie sich zunächst mit Eigenschaften erlebt, wie man eben als junger Mensch ist. Man findet nicht immer so geneigte Seelen, daß man zu einem Ärishnamurti gemacht wird. Man lebt herein in die Welt wie natürliche Kinder hereinleben zu ihrem Nutz und Vorteil, auch wenn sie später hellsichtige Persönlichkeiten werden. Da kann man dann in irgendeinem Zeitpunkt aufleuchten sehen, was auch karmisch bedingt ist, das Hineinschauen in die geistigen Welten. Aber gerade bei der hellsichtigen Seele kommt es oft vor — und es ist wichtig, daß es vorkommt -, wenn sie etwas außerordentlich Elegisches in der Stimmung hat, etwas Tragisches haben kann, daß dann bei dieser hellsichtigen Seele auftritt dieses Schauen der eigenen Jugend wie einer objektiven Wesenheit. Ein Schauen der Jugend tritt auf, aus der man herausgewachsen ist, von der man sagt: Was wäre aus dieser Jugend geworden, die einem fast fremd ist, wenn man nicht eingelaufen wäre in die geistigen hellseherischen Verhältnisse? — Es findet wirklich eine Art Spaltung des Menschen statt. Man erlebt etwas wie eine Art Neugeburt, und man sieht zur Jugend hin wie zu einer fremden Wesenheit. Und in dieser Jugend liegt sehr vieles, wovon man sagt, man kann es in dieser Inkarnation gar nicht austragen. Da liegt viel Karma darinnen begraben, das später einmal ausgetragen werden muß, oder demgegenüber man sich bemühen muß, es schon jetzt zum Austrag zu bringen. Von solch unausgetragenem Karma ist vieles in der Seele des Johannes Thomasius.
Solches unausgetragenes Karma, solches Erlebnis wie das, wenn man auf seine Jugend sieht wie auf eine andere Wesenheit, ist etwas, was man im Inneren erlebt. Zu solchem Erleben hat Luzifer Zugang; das kann Luzifer heraussondern; er kann sich einen substantiellen Teil des Ätherleibes nehmen und ihn gleichsam beseelen mit dem unausgetragenen Karma. Dann wird ein Schattenwesen daraus unter dem Einfluß des Luzifer, ein solches Schattenwesen, wie es in dem Geist des jungen Johannes Thomasius dargestellt ist. Ein solches Schattenwesen ist ein wirkliches Wesen; es ist da, abgesondert von Johannes Thomasius, nur daß es grausige Verrichtungen hat aus dem Grunde, weil es eigentlich der allgemeinen Weltenordnung widerspricht. Was als Schattenwesen draußen ist, sollte in dem Johannes darinnen sein. Dadurch wird das hervorgerufen, was man als ein tragisches Geschick dieses Schattenwesens empfindet, das als ein Teil des Ätherleibes in der elementarischen und geistigen Welt draußen lebt. Das ist also durch Luzifer zum Schattenwesen verselbständigtes unausgetragenes Karma des Johannes Thomasius. Derjenige, der so etwas erlebt — und das ist ein wichtiges, ein bedeutungsvolles Erlebnis -, erlebt es so, daß er weiß, weil er Karma unausgetragen hat, hat er eine Art kosmischer Schuld auf sich geladen, hat er ein Wesen geschaffen, das eigentlich nicht draußen sein sollte, sondern in einem selber. Das wird in «Der Seelen Erwachen» durch die andere Philia dem Johannes Thomasius zum Bewußtsein gebracht, daß er ein solches Seelenkind geschaffen hat, das draußen in gewisser Beziehung ein unberechtigtes Dasein hat. Das ist die Eigentümlichkeit, wenn man sich in die geistigen Welten hinauflebt, daß man seiner eigenen Wesenheit entgegentritt, aber daß einem in der geistigen Objektivität diese eigene Wesenheit vervielfältigt entgegentreten kann. Bei Johannes Thomasius haben wir die mannigfaltigste Vervielfältigung. Es tritt ihm entgegen ein Teil seines Wesens als Doppelgänger, jetzt ein anderer Teil seines Wesens, denn das Karma gehört durchaus zum Wesen des Menschen, als der Geist des jungen Johannes Thomasius.
Dann aber tritt ihm noch ein Drittes entgegen, denn er ist nicht in der Lage, das durchzumachen, was die Maria durchmacht. Sie macht verhältnismäßig eine normale Entwickelung durch. Im neunten Bilde treten ihr Astrid und Luna, zwar nicht im Verein mit der wirklichen Philia entgegen, aber immerhin treten ihr zwei Seelengestalten entgegen. Das ist eine verhältnismäßig dem Normalen angenäherte Entwickelung. Ganz normal wäre es, wenn Maria vor den drei Seelengestalten stünde und das ganze Denken, Fühlen und Wollen so objektiviert wäre, daß Maria sie als Einheit empfände. Aber so eine normale Entwickelung ist kaum vorhanden. Und ich betone: das, was ich zu charakterisieren versuchte, sind reale Gestalten, so daß die Verhältnisse absolut real möglich sind. Also solch eine Seele, der Astrid und Luna entgegentreten, unter Ausschluß der Philia — weil das, was Bewußtseinsseele und Verstandesseele ist, in einer regelmäßigeren Weise bei Maria ausgebildet ist als die Empfindungsseele -, solch eine Seele macht schon eine in hohem Grade normale Entwickelung durch. Bei Johannes Thomasius haben wir eine sehr stark von der normalen abweichende Entwickelung. Da haben wir zunächst das Auftreten des Doppelgängers. Indem Johannes Thomasius entgegenrückt seinem anderen Selbst, haben wir das Auftreten des Doppelgängers und des Geistes von Johannes’ Jugend. Das alles ist in die Zahl vervielfältigt, etwas, was zum anderen Selbst gehört, respektive auftritt, weil das andere Selbst wie der Beleuchter dieser inneren Verhältnisse auftritt. Und weil Johannes Thomasius an dieses andere Selbst nicht gleich herankommt — würde er ganz herankommen, so würden ihm alle drei Seelengestalten entgegentreten, er muß aber durch mancherlei hindurch, was sich ihm da entgegentürmt auf dem Wege zum anderen Selbst -, so kommt an ihn heran auch das, was noch nähersteht der Subjektivität. Das ist die andere Philia. Die andere Philia ist auch in gewisser Beziehung das andere Selbst — aber das andere Selbst, das noch in den Tiefen der Seele darinnen ruht und sich nicht ganz losgelöst hat, das zusammenhängt mit etwas, was der geistigen Welt hier in der physischen Welt am ähnlichsten ist, was zusammenhängt mit der allwaltenden Liebe, und was einen hinaufführen kann in die höheren Welten, weil es mit dieser Liebe zusammenhängt. In der Gestalt der anderen Philia tritt ein Drittes dem Johannes 'Thomasius entgegen auf dem Weg zum anderen Selbst. Wenn einer Seele entgegentreten würden alle drei Seelengestalten, so hätte sozusagen diese Seele gar kein Hindernis. So aber kann sich noch das ganze Wesen des Menschen verobjektivieren, in den Raum hinausprojizieren, als Ganzheit hinausprojizieren. Das ist beim Schauen der anderen Philia am Ende des zweiten Bildes in «Der Seelen Erwachen» der Fall.
Nun habe ich Ihnen charakterisiert, daß sich der Mensch, indem er sich in die elementarische Welt hineinlebt - und gewisse Merkmale dieses Hineinlebens bleiben auch, wenn sich der Mensch in die geistige Welt hinauflebt —, die Verwandlungsfähigkeit aneignen muß, weil in der geistigen Welt alles in Verwandlung ist, weil da nichts starre abgeschlossene Form ist. Form ist in der physischen Welt nur. In der elementarischen Welt ist Beweglichkeit, Verwandlungsfähigkeit. Damit ist aber verknüpft, daß, weil alles in stetiger Verwandlung ist, Verwechslungen eintreten können, wenn einem irgend etwas Wesenhaftes entgegentritt. Es ist eben alles in stetiger Verwandlung. Wenn man sozusagen nicht gleich nachkommt, so verwechselt man das eine mit dem anderen. Das ist es, was Johannes Thomasius passiert, indem er zuerst die andere Philia vor sich hat und dann den Doppelgänger für die andere Philia hält. Solche Verwechslungen treten außerordentlich leicht ein. Man muß sich klar sein, daß man sich erst hindurcharbeiten muß zum wahren Anschauen der höheren Welten, und daß da gerade leicht wegen der Verwandlungsfähigkeit Verwechslungen eintreten können. Und die Art, wie sich diese Verwechslungen herausstellen, ist außerordentlich bedeutsam für den Gang, den die Entwickelung einer Seele nimmt. Sie erinnern sich, dreimal hat Johannes ein Erlebnis. Daß Johannes Thomasius dieses Erlebnis gerade so hat, hängt davon ab, daß er in einer gewissen Weise geworden ist. Das erste Erlebnis ist mit der anderen Philia, das zweite Mal mit dem Doppelgänger, das dritte Mal wieder mit der anderen Philia. Da haben wir eine Dreiheit von Erlebnissen. Mit Dreiheiten haben wir es überhaupt in der Welt zu tun. Wir müssen diese Dreiheiten geradezu suchen, weil immer Dreiheiten da sind. Daß Johannes Thomasius zweimal die andere Philia vor sich hat, einmal nur den Doppelgänger, und einmal diese Verwechslung begeht, das hängt zusammen mit dem, was er erreicht hat. Mit dem, was er ist, hängt aber auch zusammen, daß er dieses Seelenkind, den Geist des jungen Johannes, wahrnimmt, der sein Geschöpf ist — allerdings mit Hilfe des Luzifer zustande gebracht —, der aber da draußen in der Welt vorhanden ist. Das ist etwas, was zu den oft erschütterndsten Erlebnissen des hellseherischen Bewußtseins gehört, daß man Teile des Karma, die unausgeglichen sind, durch Luzifer verselbständigt in Schattenwesen, in der geistigen Welt findet. Man kann viele solche Schattenwesen finden, die man durch sein unausgetragenes Karma selber, durch Luzifer veranlaßt, in die geistige Welt versetzt hat. Diese Erlebnisse mit den Schattenwesen sind so, wie sie dem Entwickelungspunkt der Seele entsprechen. Nehmen wir an, die Sache läge für Johannes Thomasius anders. Er würde eine zweimalige Verwechslung begehen, würde zweimal unrichtig sehen und einmal richtig, oder zweimal den Doppelgänger sehen und einmal die andere Philia. Aber bei Johannes Thomasius liegt die Sache so, daß er noch zu stark in der Subjektivität steckt. Maria steht schon in der Objektivität so stark, daß zwei Seelenkräfte ihr gegenübertreten. Johannes muß noch so seine Seele erkraften, daß das, was noch ziemlich subjektiv bleibt, ihm entgegentritt: verzaubertes Weben des eigenen Wesens. Das wird objektiv. Und mit diesen Worten erkraftet er auch seine Seele, mit den Worten: «Verzaubertes Weben des eigenen Wesens.» Und indem dieses verzauberte Weben des eigenen Wesens heraufkommt, sich nähert dem anderen Selbst, steht sich Johannes gegenüber als Doppelgänger, als Geist des jungen Johannes, als andere Philia. Johannes Thomasius wäre anders geartet, wenn er die Dreiheit anders erleben würde, wenn er, sagen wir, zweimal Verwechslungen begehen würde und zweimal den Doppelgänger erleben könnte. Wenn das der Fall wäre, dann wäre Johannes eben ein anderer. Wenn die Sache nicht gerade so wäre, wie es in «Der Seelen Erwachen» dargestellt worden ist, so würde Johannes nicht einen Geist des jungen Johannes, sondern viele solche im Schattenreich erblicken. Stellen Sie sich an der Stelle des Johannes 'Thomasius einen solchen Johannes vor, der zweimal Verwechslungen begehen würde oder zweimal den Doppelgänger erleben könnte, dann müßten viele Geister des jungen Johannes da sein, denn dann würden viele solcher Seelenkinder des Johannes da sein müssen. Wir stoßen mit diesen Dingen vielfach an den Rand großer seelischer Geheimnisse.
Aus all dem aber, was ich Ihnen dargestellt habe, sehen Sie, daß der Weg der hellsichtigen Seele zur wahren Wesenheit des Menschen hin kompliziert ist, daß diese menschliche Seele ein kompliziertes Wesen ist. Man nähert sich der wahren Wesenheit des Menschen allmählich beim Aufsteigen in die geistige Welt, wenn man sich selber zum Erinnerungswesen, zum Gewesenen wird, wenn also einmal für die menschliche Seele das Bewußtsein auftaucht: Du bist jetzt nicht in der Gegenwart, du hast auch zunächst keine Zukunft vor dir, du bist das, was du gewesen bist, trägst dein Gewesenes in die Gegenwart herein. -— Man wächst dann als geistiges Wesen so weiter, daß dieses Gewesene, das, was man heraufgetragen hat in die geistige Welt, was man selber geistig erlebt, ein Geistgespräch beginnt mit der umliegenden Geistwelt. Man wächst heran, indem man lauscht diesem Gespräche der eigenen Vergangenheit mit den Gedankenlebewesen der geistigen Welt. Aber man hat, wenn man sich so hineinversetzt fühlt in die geistige Welt, in der man sein anderes Selbst findet, immer ein Gefühl, ein Erleben, das etwa in der folgenden Weise ausgedrückt werden kann. Der Mensch fühlt, du bist jetzt zwar in der geistigen Welt, du kannst dein anderes Selbst, indem du dich innerhalb deines astralischen Leibes in der geistigen Welt aufhältst, als eine geistige Wesenheit finden, aber dein ganz wahres Wesen, das, was du eigentlich bist, kannst du in dieser Welt doch noch nicht finden. Dasjenige, wovon dein Ich in der physischen Welt das Schattenbild ist, das findest du trotz des Aufstieges in die geistige Welt noch nicht. Da lernt man nach und nach erkennen, was man für ein bedeutsames Erlebnis noch haben muß, um das wahre Ich, um die wahre innere, noch in diesem anderen Selbst eingehüllte Wesenheit zu finden. Ja, die menschliche Wesenheit ist kompliziert und liegt tief, tief in den Seelentiefen drunten. Und um wirklich auf das wahre Ich zu kommen, sind so mancherlei Erlebnisse durchzumachen. Wir haben manches von dem geschildert, was der Mensch durchmachen muß, um zu seinem wahren Selbst zu kommen, das in ihm lebt. Um zum wahren Ich zu kommen, ist noch das Folgende durchzumachen.
Wir haben betont, wie man heraufdringt in die geistige Welt mit der Erinnerung, wie man zunächst keine neuen Eindrücke hat, sondern dasjenige sprechen lassen muß, was man gewesen ist, wie man als punktuelle Wesenheit lauschen muß dem Geistgespräch zwischen dem Gewesenen seiner selbst und der geistigen Umwelt. Diese Erinnerung bleibt einem. Sie bleibt einem auch zwischen dem Tod und einer neuen Geburt. Das, was man gewesen ist, ist gerade in der geistigen Welt zunächst vorhanden. Die Erinnerung an das sinnlich wirkliche Dasein zwischen Geburt und Tod bleibt gerade fest bestehen und bleibt innerhalb der Seele vorhanden zwischen dem Tod und einer neuen Geburt. Will man aber als hellsichtig gewordene Seele zum wahren Ich vordringen, dann lernt man erkennen, daß ein Entschluß, eine geistige Tat notwendig ist. Und von dieser geistigen Tat kann gesagt werden, sie muß der starke Willensentschluß sein, das, was man heraufgetragen hat in die geistige Welt, was man als Erinnerung seiner selbst heraufgebracht hat, in sich auszutilgen, in sich zu vergessen, durch Willensentschluß auszutilgen die Erinnerung dessen, was man gewesen ist mit allen Einzelheiten. Da kommt man dann an dasjenige, was ja schattenhaft hereinleuchten kann auch schon für frühere hellsichtige und Erkenntnisstufen. Angedeutet ist sozusagen eine frühere Ankündigung dessen, was man da erlebt in der geistigen Welt, in dem dritten Bild von «Der Seelen Erwachen», wo Strader am Abgrund seines Daseins steht. Aber so ganz richtig in wahrer Gestalt steht man am Abgrund des Daseins, wenn man den Entschluß faßt, durch freies inneres Wollen, durch energische Willenstat, sich auszulöschen, zu vergessen. Im Grunde genommen sind im Menschenwesen alle diese Dinge auch als Tatsache vorhanden; der Mensch weiß nur nichts davon. Jede Nacht muß er sich in dieser Weise unbewußt auslöschen. Aber es ist eben etwas ganz anderes, mit vollem Bewußtsein sein Erinnerungs-Ich der Vernichtung, dem Vergessen, dem Abgrund anheimzugeben, wirklich eine Weile zu stehen in der geistigen Welt am Abgrund des Seins gegenüber dem Nichts als Nichts. Es ist das erschütterndste Erlebnis, das man haben kann, und man muß mit großem Vertrauen an dieses Erlebnis gehen. Um als Nichts an den Abgrund zu gehen, ist notwendig, daß man das Vertrauen hat, daß einem aus der Welt dann das wahre Ich entgegengebracht wird. Und das geschieht. Man weiß dann, wenn man am Abgrund des Seins dieses Vergessen zustande gebracht hat: Ausgelöscht ist alles, was du bisher erlebt hast, du hast es selbst ausgelöscht. Aber dir kommt aus einer Welt, die du selbst bis jetzt nicht erkannt hast, aus einer, ich möchte sagen, übergeistigen Welt dein wahres Ich entgegen, das in dem anderen Selbst nur noch eingehüllt war. — Jetzt erst begegnet man sich, nachdem man sich völlig ausgelöscht hat, mit seinem wahren Ich, von dem das Ich innerhalb der physischen Welt das Schattenbild, die Maja ist. Denn das wahre Ich des Menschen gehört der übergeistigen Welt an, und der Mensch steckt mit seinem wahren Ich, von dem ein schwaches Schattenbild das physische Ich ist, in der übergeistigen Welt darinnen. So ist ein innerliches Erleben das Aufsteigen zur übergeistigen Welt, das Erleben einer völlig neuen Welt am Abgrund des Seins und das Empfangen des wahren Ich aus dieser übergeistigen Welt am Abgrund des Seins. Diese Schilderung wollte ich wie eine Verbindungsbrücke zwischen der heutigen Betrachtung und der morgigen in Ihre Seelen legen. Sie soll uns in gewisser Weise beschäftigen zwischen heute und morgen wie ein Verbindungsglied zwischen der heutigen und morgigen Betrachtung. Denn anknüpfend an die Worte, die ich heute gesprochen habe über die Begegnung am Abgrund des Seins, wollen wir dann morgen weitersprechen.
Seventh Lecture
In the course of these lectures, we have spoken about the ascent of clairvoyant consciousness into the worlds in which the true essence of the human being, which belongs entirely to the supersensible worlds, can be fathomed. And in the last few days we have tried to show how the human soul, when it rises above the threshold, first passes through the elemental world and then enters the spiritual world, how this soul encounters what can be called the other self of the human being. One could also characterize the ascent in this way.
First, the human being lives within his physical body in the physical-sensory world. When he discards his physical body, that is, when he leaves his physical body, he lives first in his etheric body and lives there in the elemental world as his environment. As I said, tomorrow I will point out to those who suspect contradictions how the terms used here relate to the terms in my “Theosophy.” In their etheric body, human beings live in the elemental environment. When the human being then also discards his etheric body, he ascends into the actual spiritual world; this then becomes his environment, and he is in his astral body. In his astral body, the human being experiences his other self, which passes from incarnation to incarnation, and of which we have been able to emphasize that it is experienced in such a way that one stands, as it were, as a third party facing two other facts. Like a point-like being, one stands opposite what one might call one's past, what one brings with one into the spiritual world as memory, what one has transformed into the spiritual by carrying it up. And this past then begins a conversation in the region where the thought beings have their spiritual conversations. Such a spiritual conversation begins there, which one must listen to as if newly born in the spiritual world, what one's own past speaks to the spiritual environment, and through this one matures and grows as a thought being.
Now, there are many things to observe in this growing into the spiritual worlds. To understand each other well, let us first take, so to speak, the ideal normal ascent into the spiritual world, that is, an ascent that would occur in a soul that had no disturbances of any kind. It is safe to say that such a soul hardly exists. That is why I endeavored not only to describe the spiritual path in general, but also to portray it as dramatically as it happened, because every soul starts from a specific point of departure, and therefore a normal, ideal ascent cannot actually exist. Every soul has its own individual spiritual path. Of course, this can only be shown by looking at individual souls, such as Mary, Johannes Thomasius, Capesius, and Strader, and seeing how the individual ascent looks for these individual souls. But let us leave that aside for a moment. Let us think about what it would be like if the ascent of a soul could be normal and ideal, if all the most ideal conditions were fulfilled for crossing the threshold, for ascending into the spiritual worlds. Then, when a person encountered their other self in the spiritual world, they would not experience it as one experiences a photograph of oneself, but rather what is subjective in the physical-sensory world and in the elemental world, what lives within the soul in abstract subjectivity, what are soul forces, thinking, feeling, and willing, which one says one has within oneself — one no longer has this within oneself. This thinking, feeling, and willing that one has in the physical world objectively confronts one when one encounters the other self in the spiritual world, and it does so as a trinity. And I tried to represent this trinity that one encounters and of which one must be conscious within oneself—this trinity is oneself—in the figures of Philia, Astrid, and Luna. These figures are very real; they exist in the spiritual world as often as there are individual human souls. Once you have recognized them, you recognize them as easily as you recognize all grains of oats once you have learned to recognize one grain of oats. But one must be clear that what is otherwise only a shadow image, a faint shadow image in the human soul, then, when one encounters one's other self, appears as a living trinity, as a truly differentiated trinity, as a trinity differentiated into three beings. One is Philia, Astrid, Luna oneself. But these are nevertheless entirely independent thought beings.
And what one must then have in the strengthened soul is the consciousness that one is the unity of these three beings. And one must also be conscious that what one calls thinking, feeling, and willing is a Maya, namely the shadow image cast into the soul by these three. The sickness of the soul could consist either in not recognizing oneself in the spiritual world as these three beings, in regarding these three as beings that have nothing to do with oneself, or in not being able to hold fast to the unity, but instead holding oneself in such a way that one part of the soul is Luna, another is Astrid, and yet another is Philia. But to see this other self in its full trinity requires a normal ideal development of the soul, which is hardly possible in a human soul.
If we consider what can exist, what can become real in the true sense, we must say: We have already pointed out that the figures designated by Ahriman and Lucifer send their impulses into the physical-sensory world. We have found them, Ahriman and Lucifer, in the most diverse areas of the physical world. But the human soul comes into contact with Ahriman and Lucifer to a much more intense degree, much more strongly, when it sets out on the path of clairvoyant consciousness. When it leaves the physical world and tries to enter the higher worlds, Ahriman and Lucifer approach this human soul and try to accomplish many things with it. To understand some of the deeds of Ahriman and Lucifer in this realm, the following should be mentioned.
The human soul is truly a very complicated being, and as such it has many things within itself that contradict each other, that it cannot control, that lie in the depths of the soul without the higher consciousness having any real understanding of them. I have already mentioned the following. When one enters the elemental world, it is as if the experience can be compared to the grotesque image of sticking one's head into an anthill; that is, one sticks one's consciousness into the elemental world in such a way that the individual thoughts are special thought beings that begin to have an independent life, and one plunges one's consciousness into this life. Now, for the clairvoyant soul, the following becomes apparent. Man always has something in his soul that he does not fully control, so to speak, for which he has special affections. Ahriman develops a special activity toward such things, which are of such a nature that they are connected with man's inner being in a very peculiar way. There are parts of the human soul that can be separated, as it were, from the whole of the human soul. Because human beings do not exercise complete control over such inclusions, Ahriman attacks them. And through Ahriman's unjustified activity, which arises from his crossing his boundaries, the tendency then arises such parts of the human etheric being and also of the human astral being, which have the tendency to separate themselves from the rest of the soul life and become independent, are shaped by Ahriman, so that he gives them human form. Basically, all kinds of thoughts that are within us can take on human form. When the human being confronts these thoughts as thought beings, when Ahriman then has the opportunity to make such a part of the human soul independent, to give it human form, and one lives oneself into the elemental world, then one stands face to face with this independent part of one's being as one's double. It is always a part of the human soul that Ahriman gives the form of the human figure. One must only realize that when one enters the elemental world, when one is outside one's physical body, many things change in all relationships. When you are stuck in your physical body, you cannot face yourself; but when you enter the elemental world in your etheric body, you can be stuck in it and still see it from the outside, as you see your double. This is what is meant by the double. Strictly speaking, it is basically a large part of the etheric body itself. While one part of it is retained, another part separates and becomes objective. One looks at it, and it is a part of one's own being, to which Ahriman has given the form that one has oneself. For Ahriman tries to force everything, so to speak, into the laws of the physical world. In the physical world, the spirits of form reign, and they share this dominion with Ahriman, so that Ahriman can carry out with a part of the human being what can be described as the shaping of a part of the human being into a doppelganger.
This encounter with the doppelganger is — relatively speaking — an elementary phenomenon, and it can occur through special subconscious impressions and impulses of the human soul, even if the person is not clairvoyant. The following may happen: Some person may be a schemer and may have caused harm to various people through his intrigues. He may have gone out again and planned some intrigue. He returns to his apartment, perhaps enters his study, where there may be papers on his desk containing the details of the intrigues he has planned, and it may happen that, even though he may be cynical in his conscious mind, his subconscious is seized by those impulses of scheming. He enters his study, looks at his desk, and lo and behold: he is sitting there himself. It is an unpleasant encounter when you walk through your own door into a room and see yourself sitting at your desk. But such things belong to the realm of what happens very often and what can easily happen when such intrigues are taking place. What one encounters there is definitely the doppelgänger, whom I have tried to portray with other tasks in The Guardian of the Threshold and The Awakening of Souls. We know that this doppelgänger is experienced by Johannes Thomasius, and it is connected with the peculiar development of Johannes Thomasius that he has encounters with his doppelgänger in the places where it is shown, because through the peculiar experiences he has had, Ahriman can shape a part of his soul in such a way that this part of the soul is substantially filled with selfish soul elements as part of the etheric body. Something like this occurs when the preconditions are created, as in the case of Johannes Thomasius. You can gain a little insight into the peculiar soul of Johannes Thomasius through the four dramas. At the end of “The Guardian of the Threshold,” a certain point of development in the soul of Johannes Thomasius is also hinted at. Such a point of development can occur for many souls who are seeking the path to the supersensible worlds.
Let us briefly summarize the situation of Johannes Thomasius. Looking back at “The Gate of Initiation,” we see Johannes Thomasius experiencing the higher world, so to speak. But how does he experience it? It is fair to say that if we take only this part of the dramas, “The Gate of Initiation,” and look at Johannes Thomasius in it, he does not actually get very far. He does not go beyond what can be called imaginative soul experiences with all their one-sidedness and errors. Everything that is depicted there are subjective experiences, with the exception of the images that do not belong to the plot, the prelude, and the insertion before the eighth image. But what else is there are the subjective imaginative experiences of Johannes Thomasius. Johannes does not go beyond this stage in “The Gate of Initiation.” This is also quite clearly indicated by the fact that, with the exception of the two scenes mentioned, Johannes is always on stage, which is quite difficult for the actor. And everything is to be thought of as imaginative knowledge in Johannes' soul. Even though at the end of “The Gate of Initiation” Johannes Thomasius speaks all kinds of words in the temple that have theoretical objective validity, it should be mentioned that in the various temples some people speak words for which they are not yet ready, words they must first mature to. That is not the decisive factor, but one recognizes from the whole presentation that one is dealing with the subjective imaginings of Johannes Thomasius.
The matter continues in the “Trial of the Soul,” where a higher ascent is brought about by Johannes coming to impressions from previous earthly lives, which is not merely imagination, where the matter goes out into the objective world, where one is dealing with spiritual facts that exist separately from the soul of Johannes Thomasius as such. In the “Trial of the Soul,” we step out of the subjectivity of Johannes Thomasius into the objective world. So these first two parts can be seen as Johannes Thomasius gradually detaching himself from his inner world and stepping out into the outer spiritual world. Precisely because Johannes undergoes the first stage of the actual initiation during the “Trial of the Soul,” it was only natural that Lucifer would gain the tempting influence that is depicted at the end of the “Trial of the Soul.” And with that, the conditions were in place for a soul like that of Johannes Thomasius to undergo what is hinted at in The Guardian of the Threshold.
In “The Guardian of the Threshold,” Johannes Thomasius is placed in the spiritual objective world, where, driven by his work, he initially faces Ahriman more subjectively, absorbing from him what he develops in contrast to the divine world order in terms of egoism. But then the objective experiences begin, in which Lucifer reigns. Here we are no longer dealing with merely subjective experiences, but with the representation of the spiritual world, detached from human beings, which is experienced in the spiritual realm just as the external physical world is experienced in the physical realm. But Johannes Thomasius, so to speak, only enters the objective spiritual world at this point. Therefore, he can still bring with him all the possibilities of error of the human soul, above all the peculiar relationship with Theodora. This relationship must be understood as it is meant. One might say that Johannes enters this higher world with all the dross of the lower self, but he stands opposite the higher world. And if I want to describe the matter in a rather simplistic way, I would say: Johannes Thomasius falls occultly in love with Theodora. — Thus, in the relationship between Johannes Thomasius and Theodora, certain impulses from the physical world are carried up into the higher world. Through all this, Johannes Thomasius arrives at what is hinted at at the end of “The Guardian of the Threshold.” Johannes Thomasius arrives at an experience of the ordinary self that belongs to the physical world and the elemental world, which one carries with oneself when one goes through the world as a human being, and of the other self that one encounters when one enters the spiritual world. Both in the ninth picture, during the walk, and in the temple before Hilarius, Johannes Thomasius arrives at what can be called his inner feeling of both the one self and the other self. However, it is clear that Johannes Thomasius has not yet established order in relation to the harmony between the ordinary self and the other self, that he lives back and forth between the two selves. If we consider that Johannes Thomasius stands at the end of “The Guardian of the Threshold” and thus at the beginning of “The Awakening of the Soul” like a soul that feels within itself the coexistence of the ordinary and the other self, then we will understand that there are many things in Johannes Thomasius' soul that can be peeled away, so to speak. The doppelganger is first peeled out by Ahriman. But something can also be peeled out of him in another way.
I emphasize that I am not describing these things in order to comment on the dramas, but to use what is depicted in the dramas to portray real spiritual relationships and spiritual essences. When one considers human karma, the entire lawfulness of human destiny, one must say that there is much karma in the human soul that has been carried out, but also much that has not been carried out. In one's past earthly life, one has gone through many things that must be balanced. One has much that is not yet balanced, that lies unbalanced, so to speak, at the bottom of the soul: unbalanced karma. Every soul has such unresolved karma. Johannes Thomasius has to bring a great deal of unresolved karma to consciousness where his inner being splits into the ordinary self and the other self. And there, quite a lot separates itself from unresolved karma. What separates itself is what every soul that gradually develops clairvoyance actually perceives as light and often as separate. A soul that does this is born, that is, it enters physical existence through birth in such a way that it initially experiences itself with the characteristics of a young human being. One does not always find souls so inclined that one is made into an Arishnamurti. One lives into the world as natural children live into it for their own benefit and advantage, even if they later become clairvoyant personalities. Then, at some point, one can see what is also karmically conditioned, the insight into the spiritual worlds. But especially with clairvoyant souls, it often happens—and it is important that it happens—that when they have something extraordinarily elegiac in their mood, something tragic, then this clairvoyant soul sees their own youth as an objective being. A vision of the youth from which one has grown out, of which one says: What would have become of this youth, which is almost foreign to one, if one had not entered into spiritual clairvoyant circumstances? — A kind of division of the human being really takes place. One experiences something like a kind of rebirth, and one looks at one's youth as if it were a foreign being. And in this youth there is a great deal that one says cannot be carried out in this incarnation. There is a lot of karma buried there that will have to be carried out later, or that one must strive to carry out now. There is a great deal of such uncarried karma in the soul of Johannes Thomasius.
Such unresolved karma, such an experience as looking upon one's youth as if it were another being, is something that is experienced inwardly. Lucifer has access to such experiences; he can extract them; he can take a substantial part of the etheric body and, as it were, imbue it with the unresolved karma. Then, under Lucifer's influence, it becomes a shadow being, such as is depicted in the spirit of the young Johannes Thomasius. Such a shadow being is a real being; it is there, separate from Johannes Thomasius, only that it has gruesome deeds to perform because it actually contradicts the general world order. What is outside as a shadow being should be inside Johannes. This brings about what we perceive as the tragic fate of this shadow being, which lives as part of the etheric body in the elemental and spiritual world outside. This is therefore the unresolved karma of Johannes Thomasius, which has become independent as a shadow being through Lucifer. Those who experience something like this—and it is an important, meaningful experience—experience it in such a way that they know that because they have unresolved karma, they have incurred a kind of cosmic debt, they have created a being that should not actually be outside, but within themselves. In “The Awakening of Souls,” the other Philia makes Johannes Thomasius aware that he has created such a soul child that, in a certain sense, has an unjustified existence outside of himself. This is the peculiarity of living one's way up into the spiritual worlds: that one encounters one's own being, but that in spiritual objectivity this own being can confront one in multiple forms. In Johannes Thomasius we have the most manifold multiplication. He is confronted by one part of his being as a doppelganger, then another part of his being, for karma is an integral part of human nature, as the spirit of the young Johannes Thomasius.
But then a third part confronts him, for he is not in a position to go through what Maria is going through. She is undergoing a relatively normal development. In the ninth picture, Astrid and Luna appear before her, not in union with the real Philia, but nevertheless two soul figures appear before her. This is a development that is relatively close to the norm. It would be quite normal if Maria stood before the three soul figures and all her thinking, feeling, and willing were so objectified that she perceived them as a unity. But such a normal development hardly ever occurs. And I emphasize: what I have tried to characterize are real figures, so that the circumstances are absolutely possible in reality. So a soul such as the one Astrid and Luna encounter, excluding Philia — because what is the consciousness soul and the intellectual soul is more regularly developed in Maria than the sentient soul — such a soul is already undergoing a highly normal development. In Johannes Thomasius, we have a development that deviates very strongly from the normal. First, we have the appearance of the doppelganger. As Johannes Thomasius moves toward his other self, we see the appearance of the doppelganger and the spirit of Johannes' youth. All of this is multiplied in number, something that belongs to the other self, respectively appears, because the other self acts as the illuminator of these inner relationships. And because Johannes Thomasius cannot immediately reach this other self—if he were to reach it completely, all three soul figures would confront him, but he must pass through many things that stand in his way on the path to the other self—that which is even closer to subjectivity also approaches him. This is the other Philia. The other Philia is also, in a certain sense, the other self—but the other self that still rests in the depths of the soul and has not completely detached itself, that is connected with something that is most similar to the spiritual world here in the physical world, that is connected with the all-pervading love, and that can lead one up into the higher worlds because it is connected with this love. In the form of the other Philia, a third figure appears to John Thomasius on his way to the other self. If all three soul forms were to appear before a soul, that soul would have no obstacle, so to speak. But in this way, the whole being of the human being can still objectify itself, project itself out into space, project itself out as a whole. This is the case when we look at the other Philia at the end of the second picture in “The Awakening of the Souls.”
Now I have characterized for you that human beings, by living themselves into the elemental world—and certain characteristics of this living into the elemental world remain even when human beings live themselves up into the spiritual world—must acquire the ability to transform, because in the spiritual world everything is in transformation, because there is no rigid, closed form. Form exists only in the physical world. In the elemental world there is mobility, the ability to transform. However, this is linked to the fact that, because everything is in constant transformation, confusion can arise when one encounters something essential. Everything is in constant transformation. If one does not keep up, so to speak, one confuses one thing with another. This is what happens to Johannes Thomasius when he first sees the other Philia and then mistakes her doppelganger for the other Philia. Such confusion arises extremely easily. One must be clear that one must first work one's way through to the true perception of the higher worlds, and that confusion can easily arise precisely because of the capacity for transformation. And the way in which these confusions arise is extremely significant for the course of a soul's development. You will recall that Johannes has three experiences. The fact that Johannes Thomasius has this experience in this particular way depends on the fact that he has become a certain way. The first experience is with the other Philia, the second time with the doppelganger, and the third time again with the other Philia. So we have a trinity of experiences. We are dealing with trinities in the world in general. We must actively seek out these trinities because they are always there. The fact that Johannes Thomasius twice encounters the other Philia, once only the doppelgänger, and once makes this mistake, is connected with what he has achieved. But it is also connected with what he is that he perceives this soul child, the spirit of the young Johannes, who is his creation — albeit brought about with the help of Lucifer — but who exists out there in the world. This is one of the most shocking experiences of clairvoyant consciousness: finding parts of karma that are unbalanced, made independent by Lucifer, in shadow beings in the spiritual world. You can find many such shadow beings that you yourself have caused to be transferred to the spiritual world through your unresolved karma, through Lucifer. These experiences with shadow beings are such as they correspond to the soul's stage of development. Let us assume that the situation is different for Johannes Thomasius. He would make a mistake twice, see incorrectly twice and correctly once, or see the doppelganger twice and the other Philia once. But in Johannes Thomasius' case, the situation is such that he is still too strongly stuck in subjectivity. Maria already stands so firmly in objectivity that two soul forces confront her. Johannes must still strengthen his soul so that what remains quite subjective confronts him: the enchanted weaving of his own being. This becomes objective. And with these words he also strengthens his soul, with the words: “Enchanted weaving of his own being.” And as this enchanted weaving of his own being emerges, approaches the other self, Johannes stands opposite himself as a doppelganger, as the spirit of the young Johannes, as another Philia. Johannes Thomasius would be different if he experienced the trinity differently, if, say, he made two mistakes and experienced the doppelganger twice. If that were the case, Johannes would simply be a different person. If things were not exactly as they are described in “Der Seelen Erwachen,” Johannes would not see one spirit of the young Johannes, but many such spirits in the shadow realm. Imagine yourself in the place of Johannes Thomasius, a Johannes who would make two mistakes or experience two doppelgangers, then there would have to be many spirits of the young Johannes, because then there would have to be many such soul children of Johannes. With these things, we often come to the edge of great spiritual mysteries.
From all that I have presented to you, you can see that the path of the clairvoyant soul to the true essence of the human being is complicated, that this human soul is a complicated being. One approaches the true essence of the human being gradually as one ascends into the spiritual world, when one becomes a being of memory, of what has been, when consciousness arises in the human soul: You are not now in the present, you have no future before you, you are what you have been, you carry your past into the present. One then continues to grow as a spiritual being in such a way that this past, what one has carried up into the spiritual world, what one experiences spiritually, begins a spiritual conversation with the surrounding spiritual world. One grows by listening to this conversation between one's own past and the thought beings of the spiritual world. But when you feel so immersed in the spiritual world, where you find your other self, you always have a feeling, an experience that can be expressed in the following way. You feel that although you are now in the spiritual world and can find your other self as a spiritual being by staying within your astral body in the spiritual world, you cannot yet find your true being, what you really are, in this world. That which your ego is the shadow image of in the physical world, you cannot yet find despite your ascent into the spiritual world. There you gradually learn to recognize what significant experiences you still have to go through in order to find your true self, your true inner being, which is still enveloped in this other self. Yes, the human being is complicated and lies deep, deep down in the depths of the soul. And in order to truly reach the true self, many experiences must be gone through. We have described some of what a person must go through in order to reach their true self that lives within them. In order to reach the true self, the following must also be gone through.
We have emphasized how one rises up into the spiritual world with one's memories, how one initially has no new impressions but must let what one has been speak, how one must listen as a punctual entity to the spiritual conversation between one's past self and the spiritual environment. These memories remain with one. They also remain between death and a new birth. What one has been is initially present in the spiritual world. The memory of the sensually real existence between birth and death remains firmly in place and remains present within the soul between death and a new birth. But if one wants to advance to the true self as a soul that has become clairvoyant, then one learns to recognize that a decision, a spiritual act, is necessary. And this spiritual act must be a strong decision of the will to erase from oneself, to forget, to wipe out through a decision of the will the memory of what one has brought up into the spiritual world, what one has brought up as a memory of oneself, to erase the memory of what one has been in all its details. Then one comes to that which can already shine in, as a shadow, for those who have reached earlier stages of clairvoyance and knowledge. There is, so to speak, a hint of what one experiences in the spiritual world in the third picture of “The Awakening of Souls,” where Strader stands at the abyss of his existence. But one stands at the abyss of existence in its true form when one makes the decision, through free inner will, through an energetic act of will, to annihilate oneself, to forget. Basically, all these things are also present as facts in the human being; man just doesn't know anything about them. Every night he must unconsciously annihilate himself in this way. But it is quite another thing to surrender one's memory-ego to destruction, to oblivion, to the abyss, with full consciousness, to really stand for a while in the spiritual world at the abyss of being, facing nothingness as nothingness. It is the most shattering experience one can have, and one must approach this experience with great confidence. In order to go to the abyss as nothing, it is necessary to have the confidence that the true self will then be revealed to you from the world. And that happens. Once you have achieved this forgetfulness at the abyss of existence, you know that everything you have experienced up to now has been erased; you have erased it yourself. But your true self comes to meet you from a world that you yourself have not yet recognized, from a world that I would call super-spiritual, a world in which your true self was only veiled in your other self. Only now, after you have completely erased yourself, do you encounter your true self, of which the ego within the physical world is the shadow image, the Maya. For the true self of the human being belongs to the super-spiritual world, and the human being is embedded in the super-spiritual world with his true self, of which the physical self is a faint shadow image. Thus, an inner experience is the ascent to the super-spiritual world, the experience of a completely new world at the abyss of being, and the reception of the true self from this super-spiritual world at the abyss of being. I wanted to place this description in your souls as a connecting bridge between today's contemplation and tomorrow's. In a certain sense, it should occupy us between today and tomorrow as a connecting link between today's and tomorrow's contemplation. For, following on from the words I have spoken today about the encounter at the abyss of being, we will continue our discussion tomorrow.